Tuesday, October 11, 2011

This is how I feel after such a terrible eating weekend:

It's days like this that make me realize how much I take out my emotions on my body.  It's a constant battle. I'm bracing myself for detox week. I just went a little bat sh** this weekend with eating and not exercising.  I haven't missed a work out for like 2+ months, and this weekend I missed every workout, completely intentionally. The good news is, I've decided that I'll be a most-of-the-time vegan, but I won't freak out if/when I eat meat/animal products.  That's what this weekend taught me: I can eat meat and still sleep at night.  It also reminded me of how awful I feel, physically, mentally, and emotionally when I'm careless. And, it reminded me of the long journey that my path to health is going to be: I've been battling massive guilt for the decisions I made over the past few days and as I've been doing this I've been wishing for freedom from this guilt - it's like a sickness that I will never be cured of.  Oy. It's been a long two years and I still have so. far. to. go. 

Be healthy. 

1 comment:

  1. Leslie you inspire me

    I'm returning to being a vegan! Like you I expect it will be most of the time. It has to me more of the time than it has been of late!

    Your health, vitality, energy and joy are a living testament.

    Bless you. You truly are an amazing woman.