Thursday, November 24, 2011

More AJP

I started a blog for AJP, in hopes that he would begin posting his work for all his adoring fans.  He quickly shut the idea down, however, because he doesn't want a blog but favours instead the idea of a website.  So, hopefully, one day soon AJP will have a functional website to show off his art.  In the meantime, remember this? 

The Labyrinthine Heart 

Tuesday, November 8, 2011


I am in love with AJP's (almost completed) tapestry.  I can't wait for him to bring it home so we can put it on the wall!

Friday, November 4, 2011

Spencer Ford

I love my friend Spencer's music, I think he's got an amazing voice and is an all around brilliant musician.  He played a few of my favourite songs (Gold, Into the Mystic) at AJP and my's wedding and I think his music will always have a special place in my heart.  He's just made a new album that everyone should buy, and you can get it here:

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

After an 8km run and 40 minutes on my bike I am feeling more like myself again.  Small changes.

Be healthy.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

This is how I feel after such a terrible eating weekend:

It's days like this that make me realize how much I take out my emotions on my body.  It's a constant battle. I'm bracing myself for detox week. I just went a little bat sh** this weekend with eating and not exercising.  I haven't missed a work out for like 2+ months, and this weekend I missed every workout, completely intentionally. The good news is, I've decided that I'll be a most-of-the-time vegan, but I won't freak out if/when I eat meat/animal products.  That's what this weekend taught me: I can eat meat and still sleep at night.  It also reminded me of how awful I feel, physically, mentally, and emotionally when I'm careless. And, it reminded me of the long journey that my path to health is going to be: I've been battling massive guilt for the decisions I made over the past few days and as I've been doing this I've been wishing for freedom from this guilt - it's like a sickness that I will never be cured of.  Oy. It's been a long two years and I still have so. far. to. go. 

Be healthy. 

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Wednesday, September 28, 2011


I have fallen off the blogging bandwagon almost completely.  However, lately I've noticed how much I love to read others blogs, and how encouraged I am by the blogs that talk honestly about things that I'm interested in: food, weight loss, vocation, spirituality, art, design.  The list could go on. So in the spirit of not wanting to only take and never give, I am returning to my blog; to give back to the blogosphere that which I have personally found enriching.

I've made a great deal of life changes recently, the biggest being that I've decided to become a vegan (for a month). Here's my story:

Flirting: After reading a couple of books and watching some films on the issue I made the decision to try it out for a month (September 10 - October 10).  The decision is pretty much a result of two main factors: firstly, the meat/animal product industry at large (notwithstanding organic "happy" farms) is incredibly damaging to our earth and I simply don't want to be a part of what it's doing; rather, I simply can't with a good conscience be a part of what it's doing to our planet. Secondly, though there are numerous theories about whether or not meat and other animal products are good for our health, there does seem to be more evidence that points to it being more damaging than healthy for our bodies.  If I can get everything I need, nutritionally-speaking, from a plant-based diet then why wouldn't I? Especially if in doing so I am also doing my small part to make the environmental footprint of the meat industry smaller.  It just makes sense.

The process: This has been quite the ride.  The first week of giving up animal products was the worst. Luckily, I was forewarned that the first week or two of becoming vegan can be full of some pretty nasty symptoms as your body is cleaning itself out of the crap that it's been fed for so long.  In my case I was eating yogourt every day and at least some kind of animal protein every day (typically eggs and/or fish, but still...) So, I really didn't think the cleansing process would be that bad for me.  I was wrong.  My physical problems were not terrible: some nausea, appetite loss, and a couple bouts of the big D.  It was the emotional/mental journey that was the worst, it was the emotional/mental process that I never, ever want to go through again! In my journal during that week are a lot of bad words, a lot of fighting with AJP, general and seething grumpiness, anxiety throughout the day and even worse at night, and this crazy mixture of boredom/restlessness that led me to drive everyone who lives in my house CRAZY. I went through about a week of this.  I also had pretty much given up refined sugar and flour at the same time, which was something I had already long been going without, but never truly cut out of my life.  This could have been a part of the crazy.

At present: I feel amazing.  I have never felt so light and healthy and whole and full of energy in my entire life.

The final decision: Stay Tuned.  I have no idea what I'll do after October 10th, I genuinely don't.  Though the above provides me with resounding reason to keep on keeping on as a vegan, there are just so many things I love that are. not. vegan.  The thought of never eating creme brulee again is just slightly overwhelming.  The thought of never eating butter again makes me wonder about the point of being alive (if I can never enjoy bruschetta on a perfectly buttered and toasted baguette what's the point of living??!) so I just have to take it a day at a time.  Today I can go without creme brulee.  Today I can go without butter. And today I feel great. That's all I know. I also know I never want to go through that week from hell ever again.  

My biggest influences: Skinny Bitch (Rory Freedman & Kim Barnouin), The Kind Diet (Alicia Silverstone), Food INC.


Thursday, September 22, 2011

Looks like I'm recommitting to this blog.  Stay Tuned, folks.